Have you ever had a connection with someone so deep you begin to think alike? Have you ever had the feeling that you would do anything in your power for someone, to make them happy? Have you ever wanted to give all of yourself to someone, completely surrender? Have you ever known that if you were in a super crowded room, all you would see was them? Have you ever missed someone so much you feel empty when they’re not around? Have you ever wanted to spend all of your time with someone? Have you ever not been able to get someone off your mind? Have you ever met someone that actually makes you feel good about yourself, special, when you’ve never felt that before in your life? Have you ever been so into someone that any troubles that occur, don’t seem to matter because you cant imagine your life without them any more? Have you ever been in love? I have. EK.
Have you ever had a connection with someone, so deep, that it makes you even consider the term “soulmates”? For someone of my age & lack of life experience, I have a rather pessimistic view on the whole concept of “soulmates”, “true love” etc etc…until recently. So, what if you meet someone that appears in your life so suddenly & unexpected, flipping your whole concept over & over and makes you question to yourself…soulmates? To have a connection with someone on such a level that it can overcome so many odds that are put in its way to the point where you would do anything, ANYTHING, to just be in their presence. Obstacles; family, distance, age, experience, money…all blur into nothing when you just see their face, see their smile. A smile that melts your heart, eyes that sometimes feel they’re looking right into you, & when those 3 words are spoken, makes you feel like you could actually fly? Cheesy? I know, exactly what I would have thought when hearing that…before I met him. Before, I believed that love was just a cliché dream, concocted to make people feel better when striving to find someone to connect with. But, when you find yourself with that person constantly on your mind, counting down the hours until you can talk to them again, feeling empty every time you hang up the phone…there comes a time where even the most pessimistic have to admit; you’re in love.
There are times in all peoples lives when there seems no way out, stuck in a situation or a mood which no matter how hard you try, remains the same. Colours fade & darkness clouds your mind as the infection that is depression creeps inside. Doubts arise, you question to yourself, is this really what life has in store for me? because at the time, the darkness can be so thick that you wouldn’t even be able to see your own hand in front of your face. Time passes, people change, life moves on but again, you remain feeling stuck; powerless. Depression is in fact an infection, it changes how you perceive all aspects of your life and isolates you from the people you care about or that care about you as it creates that little voice in your head. The voice that whispers “who really gives a shit? no one. what do I live for? nothing. who would care if I disappeared tomorrow?…no body.” Depression will swallow you whole and refuse to spit you back out, the only way out is to kick it’s teeth out from the inside & claw your way out of that bottomless pit. It is a fight that you & only you are able to overcome, a struggle within yourself that CAN be won when you are able to find your own light within yourself to over power the darkness.